Yadiyadiya

If I had my way, I would be happily visiting friends and family in San Francisco . Oh...just about now, I would be thrilled to put on a jacket and jeans and get reunited with Ocean Beach and Baker Beach in the freezing SF summer weather. But about a month ago when I started getting as big as Shamu and feeling the "other joys" of pregnancy---backache, SI joint pain, insomnia, fatigue, backache, backache backache, I realized I would have to postpone my trip to SF until after Gabriel's born. A little bit of me still hoped maybe it will get better and I can still go. Sadly no..so the last week and a half, I've been pouting, and feeling angry--a little teary (sometimes a lot)...a tantrum almost brewing. It's been almost two years since I've been back "home" so I really really miss my friends, family and my quirky city. I miss my little nieces Kaylie and Khalia and have not even met my new nephew Sean David. Even Patrick has been asking when we're going back to San Francisco to visit papa and go to the museums. So in the midst of my daily domestic activities here, I'd sulk and even wallow in my disappointment and if I could physically do it I'd throw myself on the floor and scream whine like a two year old--boy...a sight that would be.
The last six + years, my kids have been my reality check gauge. This past weekend, Gabriel whacked me out of my sulking party. I've been having occasional Braxton Hicks contractions--the typical stuff for those entering the final trimester. But by Sunday night, I was having 4-5 mild to moderate contractions every hour and at rest. I also noticed Gabriel was not moving as much. I hardly got any sleep because of a little worry and just from being so uncomfortable. When I called L&D the following day, they made me come to the hospital where I got hooked up to a tocometer for 4.5 hours. Gabriel is fine, his heart rate never went down below the 140s but my contractions were very frequent. Gabriel moved all over the place as if there's a party in my womb. Dr. Moore did couple of tests and all were NEGATIVE for preterm labor. No cervical dilation, just a little effacement which is normal at this time. Basically he just told me to make sure I keep hydrated and to SLOW DOWN and take it easy. Slow down?!?! I thought I was slowing down already. Hello!?! I'm postponing SF trip and missing out on the Ireland trip in August! And wait, compared to all the stuff I was doing during the second trimester, I've slowed down a bit.
I get it Gabriel...I need to go slower. I'll have no choice now anyway. My posse here has also become my slow-down police. Thanks Girls!
So there...the sulking party is over. SF will still be there when I'm not so Shamu-size. And in the words of my wise yoga teacher .."BE HERE NOW'...wherever you are, there you be.